sad

I was just watching Primetime (news show) and they had a feature on the kids born to mothers who lost their husbands on 9/11/01... five years later. OMG the tears... the sadness... the kids were ADORABLE of course, but the premise of the story... man, I haven't cried like that in a while. And I didn't even KNOW anyone! LOL

Five years... amazing how fast time flies. One of those things that we'll always remember EXACTLY what we were doing at that time when we found out.....

Changed our lives forever.

phone interview v1

I seemed to have clicked with the lady I had the phone interview with for the Mail Tribune position in Medford, OR. She was nice and I think we got along well... all except the part where she said there would be lots of "long hours" involved for a while. We'll see.
I have phone interview v2 tomorrow at 12:30pm (my lunch hour). We'll see from there, whether they want to continue pursuing me as a candidate for the position. If they do, they said they'd pay half my flight to get out there... we'll see how tomorrow goes and I'll make my judgement after that.

Kate, the bum who is always nagging about Gogo's topline posts THIS picture....

And has the nerve to complain about the dogs topline? WTF Kate! You're crazy! I love that dog. Always have. He's a lot of the reason I wanted a Phoebe x Carbon kid. I'm thankful I have her, and now if she can turn out half as good as her big brother, I'm set :)

In dog news, Sedona the evil munched on the wall today... I thought MAYBE, just MAYBE she would leave the wall alone if I exposed it. Nope. No such luck. I'll be putting the tarp back up in such a manner so as to protect the walls. *sigh*

Had the exterminator come in and spray... he said it was the worst cricket infestation he'd seen in a long long time, but did say there was nothing I did that caused it. The only thing I could have done was to have it exterminated before this. Good thing they'll come out for free now that I've paid them to come out once. I'm sure they'll be out in a week or so to kill crickets again! He showed me the one Black Widow that was near death before he left. he said anything that is out should be dead or will be shortly... I'll trust his word. I was to keep the little one on a leash for an hour after the spray outside...

Work sucked ass today... but then, when does it NOT suck ass? I long for a job that I don't hate. Sometimes I really kick myself for leaving GreenLeaf in san Francisco... but I needed out of that toxic environment. I was not doing myself any good there.. For reasons you all know that I don't need to get into here :)

Off to cook dinner....

am i insane?

People who know what I went through with my ex, Jason, would say that he treated me like shit. I would tend to agree. However, that was 10 years ago that we started seeing each other... I broke up with him in 99. Since then, his life went down the toilet. For 4 years he was addicted to bad bad things and they did a number on him. He recently figured out he needed to get his head above water and we were talking last night on IM. I've decided I'm going to help him through this. I'm not sure why I feel the need to help this guy who was so emotionally abusive to me, but he needs a friend.... and I'm one of the few people who know that deep down, he has good intentions, he's a good person with a lot of potential.

Am I setting myself up? I don't know. I'll never know unless I give him a try. He needs someone to talk to, who can help him see the positive side of things. For some reason, I feel like I'm that person for him.

And thus begins a chapter that will hopefully have a positive outcome for Jason. He's smart, and really IS a good person... he just wasn't good for ME.

We'll see what comes of this. I hope he doesn't make me regret this....