another day done

feeling a little meloncholy tonight... another day done... another day towards the end of the year. Another day closer to my birthday, which marks yet another year of being alone. Everyone I know HAS someone... a boyfriend, a husband, a significant other. While I may tell myself I'm ok with being alone, and most of the time I really am, I can't tell you how nice it would be to just snuggle up next to someone... to know I'm genuinely cared for and loved... Someday, I suppose... that some day just keeps at such a distance... I tell myself I'm not such a bad catch.... but what is it then? I know I'm emotionally distant now, after having had the "ex-fiance experience"... is it that I keep myself distant, or do I keep myself from being available....?
yes yes, I know... in time.
damned pms gets me every time.
Going to bed.

9/25 down

I am training a new girl at work today... when I asked why she wasn't training with the girl she's likely going to work with, I got a very quick shake of the head "no" from my boss and was assured that she was in good hands with me. *shrug* I've never trained anyone, I just hope I can answer all her questions and teach her something.

Nothing special to write about... orion goes into his new family's hands on Sunday, so I'm going to spend time with him while I can. i'll miss this big goofy blue boy. I just love him to pieces but couldn't pass up a good home, especially knowing I might end up in an apartment sooner than I hope....